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Once again, I've gone a long stretch without posting anything here. In the meantime, I started another blog that I haven't posted to in a long while either. This sort of thing seems to happen with alarming regularity. This provides an amusing counterpoint to part of what I want to talk about.

First off, it's been a couple of weeks since I got my blood test back. My cholesterol dropped 60 points. My HDL could stand to be a little higher, but my LDL is well back from where it used to be. But that's not all. In the course of my low-fat diet, complete with plenty of the ultra-bland quinoa? I lost 15 pounds. And I'm still losing weight, though much more slowly than I was.

Losing all that weight has really changed the shape of my face, and it's given me something approaching a figure, which I really like. The t-shirts I've been buying fit me way, way better now. The downside? My ultra-cute jeans don't fit me right anymore! My ugly-as-sin zipperbelt that I got for five bucks on clearance? I've taken it in to the last notch. There's no more leather after that one. Just zipper.

Optimus fucking Prime, I am so skinny and it is awesome. I look and feel so much better, which is a real self-esteem booster. It used to be that I'd take pictures of myself on my webcam and go "bleh," but now I do it and go "holy shit I look amazing!"

That picture was taken yesterday. I started taking hormones and dieting on April 7th (or, as I like to call it, my transbirthday), so I'm just shy of four months on hormones, albeit at a pretty low dose. But that's something else I need to bring up. 

Since I cut my cholesterol so much and lost so much weight, I got a prescription for a higher dose of estradiol. No more peewee dose for Vera! I've titrated up to the new dose and I've been at it for just a few days, but already I feel great. The biggest thing I've noticed is that I'm finding it a lot easier to be motivated to do things. For example - I recently ordered PC parts so I could build a better gaming rig (Deus Ex 3 is coming out soon, and you'd better believe I'm going to be playing that at full sexy). I realized that my living space needed a serious makeover if I was going to accomodate the monster tower I picked up for it, so I went on a cleaning spree the likes of which I haven't even contemplated in years. I've freed up so much space I'm honestly not sure what to do with it all (this last part is a lie, but it's a lie that sounds nice, so I'm going to hang on to it). A desire to wash my face (ick, breakouts) led to a full-on scrubdown of my bathroom sink and a monster dejunking along the way. it's a little thing, but it's making a big difference in my quality of life. 

I think part of why I haven't been posting here so much is because changes have been so gradual, I don't really stop to evaluate them until a whole host of them build up and I have to stop and say "Whoa, when did that happen?" 

Still. Four months in, still going strong. 
impulsiveingenue: (Face x Desk OTP)
The title of this post refers to a certain type of artificial sweetener I've been trying to accustom myself to. It is also the explanation for why this attempt has failed.

I didn't touch on it in my previous post, aside from a passing mention, but a part of my transition will, by necessity, include a major change in dietary standards and amount of exercise, because my cholesterol is outside the acceptable range and the docs won't give me more than a very small dose of hormones unless I can get it under control.

Part of what I need to cut down on is carbohydrates. I wasn't aware that these posed a serious issue for cholesterol, but, well, doctor's orders, as they say. So, effective immediately, potatoes and rice are no longer staples of my diet. I'm slowly trying to find ways to make quinoa more palatable (curry sauce works nicely, but then curry is magic), and I'm eating yogurt much more frequently and not just for the digestive benefits.

No more croissants, no more english muffins (unless the whole wheat english muffins are any good), much less sugar intake (hence the abortive attempt to use a truly disgusting artificial sweetener, and the statement which birthed the title of this post). No more potato chips or corn chips. No more instant rice. No more sweet potato fries.

It's more than a little frustrating, but it's probably something I've needed to do for some time anyway. The fact that it has to do with my transition, however, and the fact that my continuing with transition is in many ways contingent on this will hopefully provide me with the motivation that I've seriously lacked in previous attempts.


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July 2011


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